WTF, WHERE The F, Did The Time Go?

Officially, I have three weeks until the Fall term is over. Within the next three weeks, I will be running an event on campus and putting together a presentation on it, doing an ECG lab and taking a final, and finishing the rest of an online class. Since the start of the term, I have been trying to take it project by project, and it's worked so far! The next three weeks are going to be a rush but it's all doable and I've got to remind myself of that.

Time goes by so fast sometimes.

I am proud of the accomplishments I have made within the last 8 weeks. The biggest one that will set me up for success is that I have found a site to intern at. It's near home and with someone who I think I'll get along with. Another few accomplishments are ones like not having any late assignments, getting a 95 on my first physiology test, and putting a bulletin board up. These are the school and future-related things I am proud of doing.

On a more personal level, I have managed to decrease my anxiety and depression. In the last couple of weeks, it has been slowly fading. I am at ease with my emotional life being lighter and less down. I feel like I am a lot more relaxed in general and I am able to think more clearly. BABY, MY INSPIRATION, MUSE, and LIFE IS COMING BACK! (The overthinker in me hopes that it doesn't become too good.)

I've acquired a nose stud. It's something I've wanted for a while now and I finally have it. I'm super excited about having a little edge on the outside glitter. Intelligent people can wear glitter on their faces. It's fine. I am adoring it. Within a couple of days wearing it, I feel like it has given me a boost of confidence. It's interesting how something little like jewelry can do that.

What else is there to talk about?

People and seasons. I've always enjoyed how people come in and out of my life like seasons. I tend not to be too emotionally connected to them but I will always hold them in my heart. People are special. Even if they hurt you in the end. It's like trauma situations. They suck but there is a silver lining. Same thing applies to humans!

Twenty-two and still can't drive but I think I'll change that soon. I do have a neat stud though. (; CAN WE PLEASE SLOW DOWN TIME TOO?...

Thankful for the friend I saw today. The coffee bean worker who is a kinder soul bought me coffee . I think he will go far. Thankful for my little ray of a sister as well and my better mental health.

Playlist Stalking

M U S I C.

It's been on my mind. I think I learn about someone by the music they listen to... and especially the playlists they create. Playlist stalking is a new hobby I've been exploring. I follow a few of my friends on Spotify and recently I have been snooping through their public playlists. (Don't tell on me!) Hours have faded away listening to the playlists of other humans.

Music tells a story that is deeper than what someone can share. That's what I love about this newfound hobby. I feel as if I am reading someone's diary without having to endure the details. Music is personal without being invasive. The general concept of someone's lives is outlined through the melodies and the message of the song's words. Their soul flows through the music they listen to.

Some songs make me feel so intensely that music doesn't seem real. How is it possible that the words sung by a human I've never met make emotions that have been stored in the deepest parts of my soul shine. This is what I'm thinking about on a Thursday afternoon. I don't have much else to do anyway. I discovered a song that someone else has emotional ties to and I find myself loving that song- wanting to hold it, and I think of how the other person listening to that song is maybe, feelings something similar.

Music is powerful and I guess that's why I've been loving listening to the songs others have been listening to. I'm trying to find similarities and connections in a world that I've felt is lacking those things. I'm secretly looking for people with souls like mine but I'm too scared to admit to doing that out loud and in obvious ways. I look for deeper in the things people chose to place into their lives like music.

Playlists being little chapters of someone's life-- that I will uncover in secret.